Wednesday, 29 November 2017

Bullying

I think I was always a sissy and beta boy that's maybe I got bullied so much at school. But there's something maybe strange that I remember is that I would get somewhat turned on by some of the bullyings. I would seem to be arouse being called a fag and sexually humiliated in front of others.


I don't think I had a good understanding of BDSM dynamics at that time but it did arouse certain interests that would become kinks of mine later on.

But there is one incident that really sexualized my experiences of being bullied. The first happened when one of my bullies invited me to his place after school. He was your typical jock but he did have something different about him. I accepted thinking that he might have had a change of heart about me. But once we arrived at his place, he brought me directly to his room, pulled down his shorts and without a hint of hesitation in his voice, told me to get on my knees and suck his dick.

I don't know if it was out of fear, curiosity or arousal but I did as told. I think he might have discovered that I was a good cocksucker because he eventually invited over his place to suck his cock several times a week. His bullying of me did subside but he would sometimes call me a fag in front of his friends, more out of maintaining his reputation than actual malice.

But it makes me wonder that the bullying that us sissies experience while growing up is not sometimes sexual in nature? I just know that if I was in a prison setting, which is very similar to a school playground, I would end being the prison's bitch and probably enjoy it ;)


Saying that bullying is not a good thing, it can be damaging to someone's self-worth but maybe for us sisses there's some way to make it more livable?

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