Friday, 1 December 2017

Cuckold

As a beta-male, all my romantic relationships with women have always ended with me being sexually humiliated. If strapons are not introduced early on in the relationship then cuckolding dynamics are quickly integrated.

For whatever reason, I seem to attract very dominating and kinky woman that are attracted to weak bi-sexual males like me. The forms of humiliation my girlfriends would bestow on me ranged from the psychological to the physical. An example, one of my ex-girlfriends loved to point out other men and tell me how they were more manly than me and could beat me up.


But my most humiliating cuckolding experience was when one of my exes invited her ex-boyfriend over to fuck me. I had recently admitted to her that I was bi-sexual which seem to have triggered in her the desire to see me get fuck by another man. Her ex was actually an alpha male and very big, he could easily beat me up. After he brutally fucked my ass on the couch in front of my girlfriend, he took her to her bedroom and they proceeded to have hot sex while I watched them kneeling in the corner of the room.

She broke up with me several weeks later, saying that she needed a real man in her life.

I admit that all those cuckolding experiences were very confusing for me at that time. On one hand, I was angry and humiliated and on the other, I was very turned on. The confusion only subsided when I accepted my position in the "sexual food chain" as a beta-male and sissy boy.

Now I appreciate and cherish all those cuckolding experiences. But the first woman to cuckold me was actually my own Mother. I believe that sex education starts at home and I have no taboos so I'm comfortable in admitting I always found my Mom to be a very sexy woman. But when she divorced my Dad, she did blossom sexually and was not afraid to express it.

I remember the first time I spied on her having sex with a man that wasn't my father. I recall watching her getting dressed for her date but what really stood out for me, it was the first time I saw her put on stockings and a garter belt. My Mom had beautiful legs and would always wear pantyhose but to see her in very classical lingerie was quite impressive and shocking to me.


But what floored me that night, is that my Mom brought her date home and I recall moments later hearing moaning, slapping and screaming for my Mother's bedroom. Out of curiosity I went to check it out and found her bedroom door was half-open and when I peeked in I saw my Mom on all fours on the bed with a big latin-looking guy taking her from behind.


For a young impressionable boy, it was quite a shock and demasculinizing, knowing I wasn't the men of the house anymore in a way. Seeing my own Mother being so slutty with men other than my father left a mark on my psyche and was one of the early sexual experiences that transformed me into a kinky sissy boy I am now.

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